One Irony in One Million Messages Equates To Gloom

It comes in rarity that you chance upon to stumble upon sites that lights up your urges to do something relevant to the site you recently visited. Last August 4, 2007, I came across 1millionlovemessages and decided to post a returned letter. Said letter was given back to me after a failed relationship that I had four years ago, if I recall it right. In that letter - Love Message 240 I wrote the following:

"Love Letter 101"

Dearest Marie,

As you are reading this letter, it could be that an emotional turbulence runs within you - a mixture of confusion, hate, tears, anger, sadness and the like - which was triggered by the letter I gave you a while ago. I do not blame you for feeling that way towards me.

It is my personal choice to temporarily stop everything. It is I who suffers the most when every time I wish to greet you and talk to you that it so seems I can’t. And this I do to protect you - the beautiful you whom I love and will love - from the debasing effects of rumors and scandals.

My previous letter does not suggest that I have loved you less now. It is just that I have loved you even more that I would like you to learn how to stand for something the proper way. As we set part, it is only the personal presence that we shall miss. And through this torture, I know I would feel the need for you more. I wish you’d feel the same way too. I still love you. I temporarily bid adieu. I shall miss everything that is in you.

In blue,

rbolsqp.

It also comes in rarity that certain persons would chance upon your post. Or I was just plain stupid to go with my "rbolsqp" thing. Either way, I was removed off from a certain person's link-list. It may be late, but I surmise that it was an event long sought to become by the latter and given the chance to do so, without further ado, clicked some buttons and *poof* I was off the list.

Prior to the removal, a message was sent indicating the following:

letter was written last august only. marami pa ba akong hindi alam?

that was too recent...im sure u still feel the same now.
u find ur heart again, lead your way to her.
malaya ka naman ****.
go where you can be happy.
i will let go now ****.
i want you to be happy.dnt worry bout me---i have my ***** already.

nothing for you to explain, i understand.

bye.

I may not be required to explain. I was judged by another people's ignorance and it makes me sad. But for the benefit of those who may inquire who Marie is, it is none other than Marie St. Jacques. If you know who she is, I know that your judgment shall be otherwise. Whoever this "Marie"-name represents, I am a 100% certain that it is rather the opposite of who truly Marie is. And I call that irony.

The earlier italicized message, gloom.